So Ive told you that my parents sometimes overdo things and I had some arguments with my father who was told by mother to talk with me cause they are worried about me listening to kpop. Which for sure is silly cause when I was listening to english music they didnt care and now they are acting like kpop is poison though kpop is purer then english music Ive used to listen could be..
However so yesterday my father called me again …
I was like: oh no not that topic pls Iam so through with this topic
however he then started to tell me that back then when he was about my age and had no money because he wanted to go to school and his parents refused so he fleed from home and had to “survive” on his own there was just one cinema in the city he was living. So one day his friend asked him to go to them cinema with them he did everything to find enough money and went to cinema with them. But then he fell in a platonic love witht the actress in that movie. He said it wasnt because of her look in the first place but because of the way she played that role. However the next days and weeks he really felt like being in love with that woman he did everything to get enough money and then spent it on that movie he watched it each time it was being played in that cinema. Each time after watching it he cried…
While listening to this story I was somehow touched. My father barely talks about his past because he had a really hard childhood… But this story was just so moving and the way he talked about his platonic love for that woman and how it was to feel like this in that age was so precious so I was like this:
Then he continiued to tell me that he still remebers the name of the movie and even sung the song (he watched that movie about 35 years ago and still remembers the song :’)) Ive searched for it on youtube and found it.. though it was kinda difficult since it was a “hindu/indian-movie” (and we arent hindus but the movie was really famous back then so it was watched in many countries..)
Ive found it while he was still telling his story i wasnt sure if it was the “right” vid so Ive just played it and the excitement in the eyes of my fathers when the guy started to sing made me soo happy.
here is the song of that movie.: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBkTRSzokTs
I dont understand what he is singing but I read another translation somewhere Iam going to rough-translate it:
Iam a tramp someone without a place which he belongs to.
Iam lost..
Like a lonely and homeless star on a sky who isnt loved by anybody
I dont feel like loving someone either
My love is an empty city with an unknow path to it..
Ive never been succesfull but Iam still singing a song about happiness everyday.
I ve never been happy my heart is full with wounds and scars but still Iam smiling as if nothing happened.
“World” you have either hurted me with your arrow of sorrow or your arrow of “fortune”..
(its nice isnt it ? :))
thats the proove the things you experience in your childhood and youth will always be precious memories to you. You might will forget about that issue or your feelings will get lost by time.. But then one day you will remember it maybe while watching your child having the same kind of love and feelings for someone famous and then the feeling and the memory will come back as if they were never gone… As like the memories of the childhood and the promises you made to yourself are always like the most important ones you will remember the feelings you had in your youth and never ever be able to hate or forget those persons who changed some things in your love and who were one of the important things to you for some time…
Joonie <3 you will at least forever be my platonic teenage love
I love you <3
Oh and my 5 boys who I cant forget <3 I love you too
